Sunday, May 3, 2015

The Adventures of Little Miss Birdy

A few weeks ago I was visiting with my aunt about all things spring including birds. She said every year a bird tries to make its nest inside their garage on their garage door opener. I thought that was interesting because I could only remember just one time a bird flew into our garage as a kid and my dad running around trying to get it out.

Fast forward to last weekend. I’m working in my yard with my garage door wide open. When I was finished with the yard work I walked back into the garage and startled a bird that had accidentally flown inside and is now sitting on top of my open garage door in a complete panic because she believes she’s trapped. Of course there is an opening large enough for two cars to drive through, which is plenty of space for a bird to fly in and out of; but the term “bird brain” didn’t come about because birds are particularly smart creatures. So I got the broom and started waving it around, knocking on things and saying “come on little birdy” all while trying to avoid any bird droppings that were flying through the air. (Bird poo in my hair would pretty much ruin my day.) But Miss Bird kept flying up except there is a ceiling in my garage and she couldn’t get very far so she just kept landing on the highest thing… the open garage door.

After a few unsuccessful minutes of this, I called my mom. (Moms always have the answers to odd questions like this.) She brilliantly suggested that I leave the garage door half up and half down which will create a space at the very top of the garage door opening and then go about my day and wait for the little birdy to fly out on her own. The only problem was I couldn’t get my garage door to stay halfway. It kept going up and down which made Miss Birdy totally panic and she left her spot on the (now moving) garage door and perched on the handlebars of a bicycle hanging on hooks on the wall. In all the commotion she finally saw the opening to the outside would and soared out into wide open spaces. I shut the garage door as fast as I could – I didn’t want her to change her mind and turn around and head back for my garage. (Thankfully she didn’t)

Shortly thereafter I remembered I needed to get the mail. Standing at the mailbox looking back at my garage door I was amazed at how much that little birdy had pooped all over it. Because when it’s up the front of the garage door is facing the ceiling of the garage and that was Miss Bird’s perch of choice. In her frightened state she must have lost control of her bowels.  So I got some soapy water and paper towels and scrubbed bird doo-doo off the front of the door all the while thinking to myself this is not what I planned on doing today. But hey, Miss Bird was free and my garage door was clean and when I told the story to my husband later, he had a good laugh.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

My Fourty-Books before November Reading Challenge

At the beginning of this year I set a reading goal for myself on Goodreads. In 2015 I would like to read 40 books. I'm not sure if that seems like a lot, or a little to you but for me it's a reachable, yet challenging goal.

After my goal was set my husband and I watched one of the Harry Potter movies and it got me thinking about the last time I read Harry Potter. In 2013 we listened to the audio book of  Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows on our 30 hour round-trip drive to Florida. Kevin had read all of the books except the seventh and he wanted to finish the series; so I don't really count that as the last time I read my favorite books ever. Going back in my memory, I last read HP when I was working at a coffee shop that wasn't very busy and we were allowed to read in-between making lattes and cappuccinos. I worked there around 2009-2010. Which means I last read HP over FIVE YEARS AGO. Which is definitely five years too long and I immediately went to grab my copy of Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone but then remembered the 40 books in 2015 goal I sent for myself.

Goodreads won't count a book you already have marked as "read" towards your reading challenge and I want to reach my goals! I want to win! And I want to go back to Hogwarts ASAP so I decided to tweak my goal a bit. It's now my Read-Fourty-Books-By-November-So-I-Can-Read-Harry-Potter-Again Challenge. (I'd like to bet I'm the only one with this reading goal.)

What is my strategy, you ask? Read short books, oh I know that sounds terrible but before I put any books on hold at the library, I'm checking to make sure they have less that 400 pages. I've even read a young adult graphic novel for good measure. (Of course there are still some longer books I'm reading this year, but in general the books I'm choosing are relativity short.) I'm also listening to a good share of audiobooks. I don't have a long commute but just driving to work will get me through one or two chapters. Audiobooks are really helping me speed things up.

These are the books I've read so far this year:

1. The Rosie Project by Graeme Simsion
2. At Home with Madame Chic: Becoming a Connoisseur of Daily Life by Jennifer L. Scott
3. Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead by Brené Brown
4. Eat That Frog!: 21 Great Ways to Stop Procrastination and Get More Done is Less Time by Brian Tracy
5. First Frost by Sarah Addison Allen
6. Best Staged Plans by Claire Cook
7. The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering and Organizing by Marie Kondō
8. Drama by Raina Telgemeir
9. 13 Things Mentally Strong People Don't Do: Take Back Your Power, Embrace Change, Face Your Fears, and Train Your Brain for Happiness and Success by Amy Morin
10. The Magician's Lie by Geer Macallister
11. Living Well, Spending Less: 12 Secrets of the Good Life by Ruth Soukup
12. Landline by Rainbow Rowell

Twelve books by March 22nd isn't bad, right? As you can see I like to read a variety of fiction and non-fiction, it keeps things interesting. I'm about to start a Nicholas Sparks book, because I know I can read them fast. Now I'm off to dive into a book! Have a wonderful Sunday!
 


Sunday, February 15, 2015

Bundle Up!

Thank you for the kind words on my last post. Writing things out really helps me and sharing them with people who care makes it even better. You may find more journey to baby updates here as we continue on this path. Thank you for your encouragement; it means so much to me.

On a different note, I would like to share a few pictures. Today is quite cold and winter is not my favorite season but I still think it's beautiful. These photos are actually from a few winter's ago, but they are some of my favorites.











Monday, January 19, 2015

Journey to Baby

I've wanted to write about our journey to baby for a long time, but I didn't know how to get started. But this post is for me, to write things down. Pretend like we are close friends and were are sitting in the corner of a coffee shop catching up. Because sometimes that just what I really need, someone to talk to.

In the fall of 2013 my husband and I felt it was time to start our family. We had been talking about it for the past year or so, and we had been married long enough that people had started to ask "when are you two going to have a baby?" So, we started this journey. I talked with some of the women in my family and everyone said that didn't have any struggle with trying to conceive so I didn't have any reason to be concerned and honestly, I didn't have any examples on how to deal with infertility. We went through a couple of cycles with no success and I started doing more and more research and learned about tracking your basel body temperatures and many other tips and tricks. I bought and read books trying to find the answers to my questions. I learned all the TTC jargon, BBT, BD, CM, BFP, OPK etc. I watched a lot of women on YouTube sharing their journey for which I am forever grateful because even thought I have close friends and family; I didn't want to bore them too much with my information overload. 

In the fall of 2014 we reached and year of trying for a baby without success so I made a doctors appointment to begin the conversation about our options and to begin tests in case something was wrong. But on October 13th my period was one day late and I took a pregnancy test. I was so excited about taking it, I just had this overwhelming feeling. I had taken plenty of negative pregnancy tests in the past year but I just knew something was different about this day, this cycle. When the word "Pregnant" appeared on the screen I started shaking and was in complete shock. I woke my husband up and he was sleepy until I said "I just want to tell you that you're going to be a daddy" and he sat strait up in bed saying "NO WAY!" And I was delighted and then I cried. It was a beautiful moment and I'll never forget anything about it. 

Of course this is a Monday so I get ready for work and I think to myself  "I'm pregnant, I can't believe I'm actually pregnant." It replayed over and over in my head all day. That night, I was with my mom supporting my sister at her high school choir concert and I didn't say anything. My husband and I wanted to tell our families together and it was SO HARD not to tell my mom. Tuesday, my parents were having us over for a family dinner so Kevin and I bought a pair of tiny baby shoes and put them in a shoe box. As dinner was wrapping up I told my family that I just bought a pair of shoes and wanted their opinions. When I pulled the tiny pairs of shoes out of the box there were crickets. They all looked at me like I was crazy until my sister says "you're pregnant" and I said "yes, I am!" and my moms face lit up as she jumped up to hug me and there was a chorus of congratulations, hugs and hand shakes from my entire family. 

On Wednesday, we told my husbands family that had been shopping in the area and we wanted to stop by and show them some new shoes we had just bought. Kevin handed the shoe box to his mom and when she opened the lid she looked up and me and I just shook my head yes and there the rounds of hugs and congratulations continued at their house.

On Thursday, I woke up to blood. 

I will never forgot that feeling. Like my whole world had just stopped. This can't be real. I had tried to get pregnant for so long and I had three days of unbelievable joy and now blood. While waiting on hold with the doctor I just wrote "I love you I love you I love you" over and over again on a piece of paper. After playing phone tag with the doctors office, I had an ultrasound schedule for that afternoon. The bleeding had only gotten worse and the ultrasound tech was unable to see anything. I went to the lab for blood tests and the next day found out my HCG levels were extremely low. I followed up with more blood work a week later and my HCG levels were less than one. My baby was gone.

That brings us to today. I've had two cycles since my miscarriage and no baby. I had a miscarriage follow up appointment a month after I lost our baby and the doctor said if we don't conceive in the next couple months then it would be a good idea to come in for some testing. So it's back to the BBT and OPK (basel body temperature and ovulation predictor kit.) 

I constantly remind myself that my story is not over. This is just a chapter. If God has called me to be a mother (and I feel deep in my heart that He has) then He will fulfill the calling but it will be in His timing and not mine and that is the hardest part for me. 

But I will not give up hope. We will keep praying and trying and someday I hope to see that plus sign, second line or the word 'positive' on another pregnancy test. I hope that one day I will hold my little baby in my arms, give him or her a name and to whisper prayers of thanks over them. Someday I will be a mommy. 

Oh Lord, our Lord your majestic name fills the earth! 
Your glory is higher than the heavens.
You have taught children and infants to tell of your strength, 
silencing your enemies and all who oppose you.
When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers-
the moon and stars you set in place- 
what are mere mortals that you should think about them, 
human beings that you should care for them?
Yet you made them only a little lower than God 
and crowned them with glory and honor.
You gave them charge of everything you made, 
putting all things under their authority-
the flocks and the herds
and all the wild animals,
the birds in the sky, the fish in the sea,
and everything that swims in the ocean currents. 
O Lord, our Lord, your majestic name fills the earth!
Psalms 8 NLT
 

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Pictureless

I've been writing a ton. Everyday, everywhere. Journals, notebooks, random pieces of paper (seriously.) I've discovered that writing helps me organize my thoughts and I feel like I can think more clearly when I've taken all the words bouncing around in my head and transferred them on to a piece of paper. The only place I haven't been writing? Online. This blog. After giving some thought as to why; I realized my excuse was always I don't have a picture. Well since this is my blog I am officially giving myself permission to blog without a picture. I know my last post about Thanksgiving didn't have a picture and it was quiet nice to just write. So I am planning on continuing that theme. Granted there will still be pictures whenever I want to post one, but I am hoping that giving up on the feeling that I have to have a picture will giving me the freedom to write more.

Thanks for reading my words,

Sam

Currently watching: American's Funniest Home Videos (and laughing my head off.)


Thursday, November 27, 2014

Thanksgiving 2014

Happy Thanksgiving!

Growing up, Thanksgiving looked pretty much the same every year. A two hour car ride to my grandma and grandpas' house where we stuffed ourselves full with a delicious Thanksgiving lunch for 35+ people. (My mom has a big family.) Then we headed over to my great aunt and uncles' house for Thanksgiving dinner for another 30+ people. (My dad has a big family too.) I always made sure to pack my Christmas CD's so I could listen to them on my portable CD player (remember those?!) on our two hour drive home. And that was it, the same thing every year.

Then Kevin and I got married and when you're married you get blessed with an even bigger family to share the holidays'. This is our fifth Thanksgiving together and none of them have ever looked the same. Sometimes Kevin has made that two hour car ride with me to spend Thanksgiving with my side of the family, but even then my aunt and uncles host now since cooking such a big meal is getting to be too much for my grandparents. Other years Kevin and I get to spend Thanksgiving with his family.

This year Thanksgiving was a little different yet again. We had to move the big meal to lunch to accommodate work schedules. I brought an oreo pie with a brownie crust and helped my mother-in-law make her homemade dressing (or stuffing, whatever you want to call it.) It was a nice peaceful and relaxing holiday.

I wonder what Thanksgivings of the future will look like. Will we have little babies that will someday grow into kids who want to play football in the backyard? Will I eventually host Thanksgiving at my house? That would definitely put my cooking skills, or lack there of, to the test! Will I make that two hour journey next year to see the smiling faces of my aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents? All I know is I am thankful that every year I get share Thanksgiving with people I love.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Summer Recap

I've chimed in here and there this summer but I took somewhat of a blogging break. I'm hoping to get back into the swing of things and what better way than to do a summer recap.

First off, we celebrated Kevin's birthday by having a big family dinner. Nash and Ellie got were able to meet for the first time, as I got to snap a few pictures. Ellie was more scared of him than I thought she would be. Just wait till he's mobile Ellie, just you wait. You have my full permission to hide under the bed to avoid any rough pets or stubby tail pulls
Kevin and I also celebrated out three year anniversary! Crazy to think about how fast and slow the past three years have been. I love him more today then I did then and I hope that love keeps doubling over the coming years. I love being his wife.
How did we celebrate our anniversary? We went to the zoo and took pictures with camels, of course. I mean really, is there any other way celebrate?

We had a great time. Our zoo is very nice so it was a lovely way to spend the day. That was the first time in a long time that I had walked the whole zoo in one day. I was good and tired by the end of it. We have talked about getting a annual pass so that way we can do and just do certain sections at a time. I think it's something we would really enjoy. Always and forever, the elephants are my favorite.
And as I introduced earlier, we got a kitten. Sybill has added so much fun and craziness to our household. I love this little family of mine. So far she's an excellent photobomber.
She definitely gets a passing grade in cat naps. Just looking back at these pictures she looks so tiny. I can't believe how big she is already. If I'm getting all sentimental about my cat growing up, I'm really going to be in for it when I have kids! 
 A whole crew us of went to the Parade of Homes, which is always one of the highlights of my summer. Bathroom selfies, family style. (Ok, that sounds gross and weird.)
This is just one of the the beautiful homes. I'll post a few more Parade of Homes pictures later but over at The Fat Hydrangea is a lovely round of up all the homes. This house is by Bob Webb Homes and the exterior reminded me of the house I grew up in. White house, black shutters and a red front door. (Although our house was a little, a lot smaller than this one.)

In nephew news, this little guy is getting cuter by the minute. I love that his mom sends me adorable pictures like this. I mean, look at those cheeks! I have so much love for him!


 I signed up for Stitch Fix this summer. I got my first "fix" in August and loved it. I ended up keeping two of the five pieces. I've already signed up to get another fix in a few months. I think it's something I'd like to do seasonally. It's definitely the perfect solution for a non-shopping-loving person, such as myself.
 I tired to get a picture of Ellie and Sybill together for size comparison. This is the best I could do. Unless she's sleeping, Sybill is always moving. As I type this she is trying to squeeze herself into the handle opening of a basket. She's always good for a laugh. I feel like I should do one of those updates like people do for babies. At three months old, Sybill prefers eating Ellie's adult cat food instead of the kitten formulated cat food. Ellie would look at me with the saddest look in her eyes, so I had to start mixing the food together. This way they both get some of each and Ellie doesn't have to worry about her little sister eating all of her breakfast...

 Summer ended with a beautiful country wedding I was able to attend with my family. I am very thankful for little sisters who wear the same dress size. Of course I knew about the wedding since April, but I was over at her house trying on dresses to borrow an hour before it was time to leave. I am thankful we are basically the same size. In this photo I wish someone would have told me to fix my sweater and straighten my necklace, but oh well, life is not perfect, and neither am I. The day was beautiful, the bride had tears of joy streaming down her face and she said her vows to her groom. What a wonderful way to finish a wonderful summer.